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Polar Nights

I used to live for the day time
and be out to watch the sunrise

But now, but now
Even on the sunny days I'm inside
watching televised versions
Of my life pass my by

I want to see the sun

I want to look forward to the night time
to take you dancing like those old times
I used to try to make you smile
Even on the cloudy days
I'd be your refuge and we'd hide away
And you were alive and I was alive

But now I just wanna see the sun

But it's hidden now behind the clouds
and I'm pulling myself underground
No, No, No
Now these polar nights I'm on the run
away from anywhere and anyone that I
Know Know Know

And I want to see the sun

I can see it coming through the clouds
Can I pick myself up off the ground?
I don't know know know
But when these polar nights give way to day
I'm gonna find myself again and say
I know know know

That I'm gonna see the sun

Dramamine

I see those marks inside your arms and they're not from losing your grip
Upon the tight rope you've been tugging on ever since you were born

You asked me once "What's a comprise, but both sides feeling dissatisfied?"
Maybe neither of us ever recognized that we didn't have prove anything

Even as you're checking out, I'm asking if we could talk it out
I don't want to pry but I don't want to go without knowing what's on your mind

And "I don't want to waste anymore of your time" is just how a guilty man says that
"I don't want to waste any more of mine" Well I've got all the time in the world...

Because I am fucking terrified if I go out on my own I'll realize
Nobody I'll ever love will fit quite right, like a shadow of what I used to have

Now I'm high on Dramamine and you're a ship pulling away from me, like a phone losing its signal out at sea while I'm watching the horizon fall

I'm still here trying to convince myself this is home despite that I'm compelled to move away and never tell another living soul where I'll be

You might find me in San Francisco, maybe Nashville, Portland, or Mexico, London, France, or Ontario, if I ever lay myself down

So someday soon I'll start to leave, I'll be packing my things in the summer heat, I'll stop living my life in the backseat of someone else's car

I'll look at the marks inside my arms and I'll think of you and I'll wonder where you are, I'll let the tight rope go and I'll free fall

And I won't need Dramamine

I ain't got forever
I ain't got forever
I ain't got forever
I ain't got forever...anymore

State of Mind

When a leaf falls to the ground it don't make a sound

It drifts down quite elegantly and then uselessly lays around

Unlike a leaf, a human drifts about most of its miserable days
Though similarly when the foot missteps they violent separate

I'm not gonna waste my time thinking about her (no, no, no)

I'm not gonna waste my time thinking about it (no, no, no)

But some do say there's no use to try

Well I'm inclined to believe we are designed to a state of mind

When the reality of what I am and what I strive to achieve align

The insignificance of being human astounds me every time

Does accomplishing tasks to survive keep you feeling fulfilled?
Well its a mystery to me how this ideology has been instilled

Within us that just getting by is enough to satisfy us

I fear the answer to such a degree
I sleep above a blunderbuss

I'm not gonna waste my time writing about her (no, no, no)

I'm not gonna waste my time thinking about it (no, no, no)

Some do say there's no use to try

Well I'm inclined
to believe we're designed
to a state of mind
to feel confined
all the time
take your number get in line
Oh, they'll take you while you're in your prime

When the reality of what I am and what I strive to achieve align

The insignificance of being human astounds me every time

Get Better

It's been a while since we've been together

So we say we'll meet up in the morning

Just to say what we didn't get to say

And you're telling me I need to get better

And I'm taking it the wrong way

I yell "Ain't you got nothing better to say?"

I told you I would get better

One of these days

I told you I would get better

And I'd make it out of the haze

Who says I ain't got time

(Whose time is it if it ain't mine?)
I told you I would get better

I think I'm doing just fine...

I remember you in my favorite sweater

You're sitting on my bed giggling and I'm starting to feel a little bit better

But I'm so messed up, I just want to sober up and learn how to laugh again

Maybe some day I won't remember your name

I told you I would get better

One of these days

I told you I would get better

And I'd make it out of the haze

Who says I ain't got time

(Whose time is it if it ain't mine?)

I told you I would get better

I'd say anything to make you mine

I told you I would get better

One of these days

I told you I would get better

But I lost track of you in the haze

Who says I ain't got time

(Whose time is it if it ain't mine?)
I told you I would get better

I told you I would get better

One of these days

I told you I would get better

And I'd make it out of the haight
But we all let people down

(Dont we all let people down?)

I told you I would get better

One of these days

I told you I would get better

I lost track of you in the haze
But we all let people down

(Dont we all let people down?)

I told you I would get better
I think I'm coming around

Sorrowful Sounds

You keep me alive by the threat of death

You're not the normal kind
You don't cross my mind

You just stay in it all of the time

You, you're the heartbeat in my chest
And the disease that dissolves the rest

But is my life worth living

if I'm only alive when I'm with you?

If I've lost your friendship, I can tell you

That there's little left I value

And it's times like these I'm feeling down

I open up my mouth and make

Sorrowful Sounds

Am I the heartbeat in your chest

Just beneath your breast?

Or are there other things that move you

The way I want to move you?

Darling, I don't want to leave you behind

I know that you'll never leave my mind

And you'll keep on living and I guess
In the end I'll have to try and get by

If I've lost your friendship, I can tell you

That there's little left I value

It's times like these I'm feeling down

I open up my mouth and make

Sorrowful Sounds

If I've lost your friendship, I can tell you

That there's little left of value

And it's times like these I'm feeling down

I open up my mouth and make

Sorrowful Sounds

Bayshore Freeway

It's a long drive up the Bayshore Freeway
I don't want to think about the ride home

It's a long drive up the Bayshore Freeway

And it's even longer when I'm all alone

I want something from you that I used to have

I swear I saw it in you when you held my hand

My dignity is leaking from some melted hose beneath the hood

It's gonna take more than a mechanic to repair me

You know I'd be perfect for you if I could

I want something from you that I used to have

I swear I saw it in you when you held my hand

Who's gonna drive you around when you're feeling down

When I'm not around?

Who's gonna call your phone when you're on your own

So you don't feel alone?
Who's gonna hold your hand?
Is this easier than trying to understand?

I don't want to worry about no sunshine girl
I don't want to worry about no sunshine girl

I don't want to worry about lying

I don't want to worry about crying

I don't want to worry about dying

Over some sunshine girl

Come Apart

So it seems we're no longer joined at the hip, my friend
Like a poet without a pen...or a life without an end
We knew it wouldn't last forever maybe some way now we're free
To confront the death of our childhood fantasies

Did you know you couldn't stay
Can you tell me how you could

Leave the only place you felt understood?

Are we coming apart to come together again?

I think I could use some sunshine and a spotless mind

Is it fair to say we hadn't known each other well for some time

You told me life goes in seasons, in a haze of alcohol

Tell me, if life goes in seasons, when are you coming out of the fall?

Did you know you coudln't stay?
Do you wish you'd held on?
Doesn't everyone want to feel what it feels like to belong?

Are we coming apart to come together again?

So tell me, my friend, that we'll never grow up and we'll never comprehend
That life is an ocean inside of a watering can

Dangling on a string held in the sadistic grasp

Of a young man

I know how to break apart

But how far will I bend?
I know how to break apart

But how far will I bend?
Tell me we're coming apart to come together again

Just please don't tell me

This is the end