Polar Nights​
I used to live for the day time
and be out to watch the sunrise
But now, but now
Even on the sunny days I'm inside
watching televised versions
Of my life pass my by
I want to see the sun
I want to look forward to the night time
to take you dancing like those old times
I used to try to make you smile
Even on the cloudy days
I'd be your refuge and we'd hide away
And you were alive and I was alive
But now I just wanna see the sun
But it's hidden now behind the clouds
and I'm pulling myself underground
No, No, No
Now these polar nights I'm on the run
away from anywhere and anyone that I
Know Know Know
And I want to see the sun
I can see it coming through the clouds
Can I pick myself up off the ground?
I don't know know know
But when these polar nights give way to day
I'm gonna find myself again and say
I know know know
That I'm gonna see the sun
Dramamine
I see those marks inside your arms and they're not from losing your grip
Upon the tight rope you've been tugging on ever since you were born
You asked me once "What's a comprise, but both sides feeling dissatisfied?"
Maybe neither of us ever recognized that we didn't have prove anything
Even as you're checking out, I'm asking if we could talk it out
I don't want to pry but I don't want to go without knowing what's on your mind
And "I don't want to waste anymore of your time" is just how a guilty man says that
"I don't want to waste any more of mine" Well I've got all the time in the world...
Because I am fucking terrified if I go out on my own I'll realize
Nobody I'll ever love will fit quite right, like a shadow of what I used to have
Now I'm high on Dramamine and you're a ship pulling away from me, like a phone losing its signal out at sea while I'm watching the horizon fall
I'm still here trying to convince myself this is home despite that I'm compelled to move away and never tell another living soul where I'll be
You might find me in San Francisco, maybe Nashville, Portland, or Mexico, London, France, or Ontario, if I ever lay myself down
So someday soon I'll start to leave, I'll be packing my things in the summer heat, I'll stop living my life in the backseat of someone else's car
I'll look at the marks inside my arms and I'll think of you and I'll wonder where you are, I'll let the tight rope go and I'll free fall
And I won't need Dramamine
I ain't got forever
I ain't got forever
I ain't got forever
I ain't got forever...anymore
State of Mind
When a leaf falls to the ground it don't make a sound
It drifts down quite elegantly and then uselessly lays around
Unlike a leaf, a human drifts about most of its miserable days
Though similarly when the foot missteps they violent separate
I'm not gonna waste my time thinking about her (no, no, no)
I'm not gonna waste my time thinking about it (no, no, no)
But some do say there's no use to try
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Well I'm inclined to believe we are designed to a state of mind
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When the reality of what I am and what I strive to achieve align
The insignificance of being human astounds me every time
Does accomplishing tasks to survive keep you feeling fulfilled?
Well its a mystery to me how this ideology has been instilled
Within us that just getting by is enough to satisfy us
I fear the answer to such a degree
I sleep above a blunderbuss
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I'm not gonna waste my time writing about her (no, no, no)
I'm not gonna waste my time thinking about it (no, no, no)
Some do say there's no use to try
Well I'm inclined
to believe we're designed
to a state of mind
to feel confined
all the time
take your number get in line
Oh, they'll take you while you're in your prime
When the reality of what I am and what I strive to achieve align
The insignificance of being human astounds me every time
Get Better
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It's been a while since we've been together
So we say we'll meet up in the morning
Just to say what we didn't get to say
And you're telling me I need to get better
And I'm taking it the wrong way
I yell "Ain't you got nothing better to say?"
I told you I would get better
One of these days
I told you I would get better
And I'd make it out of the haze
Who says I ain't got time
Who says I ain't got time
(Whose time is it if it ain't mine?)
I told you I would get better
I think I'm doing just fine...
I remember you in my favorite sweater
You're sitting on my bed giggling and I'm starting to feel a little bit better
But I'm so messed up, I just want to sober up and learn how to laugh again
Maybe some day I won't remember your name
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I told you I would get better
One of these days
I told you I would get better
And I'd make it out of the haze
Who says I ain't got time
Who says I ain't got time
(Whose time is it if it ain't mine?)
I told you I would get better
I'd say anything to make you mine
I told you I would get better
One of these days
I told you I would get better
But I lost track of you in the haze
Who says I ain't got time
Who says I ain't got time
(Whose time is it if it ain't mine?)
I told you I would get better
I told you I would get better
One of these days
I told you I would get better
And I'd make it out of the haight
But we all let people down
(Dont we all let people down?)
I told you I would get better
One of these days
I told you I would get better
I lost track of you in the haze
But we all let people down
(Dont we all let people down?)
I told you I would get better
I think I'm coming around
Sorrowful Sounds
You keep me alive by the threat of death
You're not the normal kind
You don't cross my mind
You just stay in it all of the time
You, you're the heartbeat in my chest
And the disease that dissolves the rest
But is my life worth living
if I'm only alive when I'm with you?
If I've lost your friendship, I can tell you
That there's little left I value
And it's times like these I'm feeling down
I open up my mouth and make
Sorrowful Sounds
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Am I the heartbeat in your chest
Just beneath your breast?
Or are there other things that move you
The way I want to move you?
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Darling, I don't want to leave you behind
I know that you'll never leave my mind
And you'll keep on living and I guess
In the end I'll have to try and get by
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If I've lost your friendship, I can tell you
That there's little left I value
It's times like these I'm feeling down
I open up my mouth and make
Sorrowful Sounds
If I've lost your friendship, I can tell you
That there's little left of value
And it's times like these I'm feeling down
I open up my mouth and make
Sorrowful Sounds
Bayshore Freeway
It's a long drive up the Bayshore Freeway
I don't want to think about the ride home
It's a long drive up the Bayshore Freeway
And it's even longer when I'm all alone
I want something from you that I used to have
I swear I saw it in you when you held my hand
My dignity is leaking from some melted hose beneath the hood
It's gonna take more than a mechanic to repair me
You know I'd be perfect for you if I could
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I want something from you that I used to have
I swear I saw it in you when you held my hand
Who's gonna drive you around when you're feeling down
When I'm not around?
Who's gonna call your phone when you're on your own
So you don't feel alone?
Who's gonna hold your hand?
Is this easier than trying to understand?
I don't want to worry about no sunshine girl
I don't want to worry about no sunshine girl
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I don't want to worry about lying
I don't want to worry about crying
I don't want to worry about dying
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Over some sunshine girl
Come Apart
So it seems we're no longer joined at the hip, my friend
Like a poet without a pen...or a life without an end
We knew it wouldn't last forever maybe some way now we're free
To confront the death of our childhood fantasies
Did you know you couldn't stay
Can you tell me how you could
Leave the only place you felt understood?
Are we coming apart to come together again?
I think I could use some sunshine and a spotless mind
Is it fair to say we hadn't known each other well for some time
You told me life goes in seasons, in a haze of alcohol
Tell me, if life goes in seasons, when are you coming out of the fall?
Did you know you coudln't stay?
Do you wish you'd held on?
Doesn't everyone want to feel what it feels like to belong?
Are we coming apart to come together again?
So tell me, my friend, that we'll never grow up and we'll never comprehend
That life is an ocean inside of a watering can
Dangling on a string held in the sadistic grasp
Of a young man
I know how to break apart
But how far will I bend?
I know how to break apart
But how far will I bend?
Tell me we're coming apart to come together again
Just please don't tell me
This is the end
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